Probably was at least one of his backup plans.

[ Matt agrees, faintly amused and sighing against Foggy's neck. ]

Don't think he would have approved of me crying for him, and he doesn't deserve it, not after the way he treated me. Doesn't make sense... I know I shouldn't care this much, I've lost better people, but it hurts anyway... All of it hurts.

[ There's a rough weiriness to his tone when he admits that thought and for a second he leans his weight into Foggy, lets the shoulder his head is resting on really keep it up. Then he's back to a more jovial tone, smiling against Foggy's skin. ]

There's a lot for me to unpack. I just hope you'll still think of me the same way by the time half of it is out. I don't want you to feel like you can't turn to me with your problems just because I have all this baggage or... I don't want to disappoint you any more than I already have by messing up and keeping secrets. Might be...

[ He hesitates, then laughs breathlessly. ]

It might be hard to think of me the same way after you've seen me cry one too many times, you know?